I always beat myself up because I feel that I am weak minded.
I almost always never resolve to do what I've resolved to doing.
For instance, eating healthy and exercising-- never got round to doing it.
Another example, taking care of my finances-- could have done better.
Reading and revising school work with the kids--- also didn't prioritize it.
Practicing violin & piano daily-- only practise out of urgency or necessity.
I don't wanna beat myself up anymore.
I protest the idea of our educational system where they make "mother tongue" compulsory. My kids' mother speaks English. Why don't they make English language the mother tongue. Even with whatever Chinese enrichment classes since I don't know... 4 years old? Kiki still is being shortlisted to extra Chinese tuition in school. Not just the $40 we have to pay (which is considered negligible for 8 lessons), it is the fact that we have to go through forced learning and to have her feel handicapped. To have one subject taking all the time, effort & resources is unequal distribution. I can't even entice Colin to read Chinese, he gives me that irritated look which got me scolding him. The Chinese vicious cycle is ruining our relationships. If we say - don't care, and leave it all alone, it will spiral to a point of no return.
Can do malay instead? Would it be easier? I can understand the pain. :(
ReplyDeleteCannot lah. Malay I laggi can't guide. Chinese Language wasn't this difficult before. I guess we're not assimilated into the language as we don't converse in mandarin much except at work with friends. Hopefully the schools will lower the Chinese standards a bit more ;P
ReplyDeleteYeah, my brother is a new father and my SIL is already thinking if possible to opt out chinese for her son. Headache! Living in France makes me feel bad I didn't do better for my chinese. It is my identity. Living in Sg, we do not feel that need. :(
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