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see my daily slab of butter,
i love butter, the creamier the better.
i don't take magarine, i don't like their waxy feel. especially palanta, i don't like.
i can eat butter by the slabs, with sugar, laggi better.
salted SCS butters are the best flavoured, i can eat it on its own.

 you can now drink the rainbow, use skittles.

why do we want to punish our kids when they don't do what we think is best for them?

i mean me; mean mom me. 

last evening, i told Kiki that if i had a cane, i would have caned her.  

she didn't do her music practises during the day and i  have to do it with her when i get home at night. day after day, i've told her -- a day that she didn't practise is a day wasted. so end up we would be doing the keyboard and the violin sometimes at 10pm. that is after running through her school's homework.

i become frustrated because then it becomes a vicious cycle as it would then be hard to wake her up at 6am the next morning. 

seeing that my cane threat had no effects on her, i said for each day that she doesn't practise on her own, the ipad will be banned, and i back-dated the number of days she didn't practise this week. being Tuesday, she will not have the ipad for two days, Weds & Thurs.

her nose turned red and her eyes start to well up. got her, i got her where it hurts. but why would i want to do that? why would i want to hurt her where i hurt? she told me quietly that she would choose to be caned over the prospects of loosing the ipad. oh wow, the degree of my ipad threat. that's terrible. then again i can't quickly go back to her and cancel all my threats. then she wouldn't take me seriously isn't it. gosh, trying to find a balance here.

in the end, she saw this rainbow skittles thingy and asked if i could do it for her. so i used this chance to give positive reinforcement and said that we will do this rainbow thingy as long as she does her music practise by herself during the day. so we made a pact on this and this is more forward looking for the both of us. 

i have also come to note that she doesn't really have a lot of time in hand during the day. reach home 2pm, shower, lunch 3pm. rest, nap 5pm? TV, Colin comes home both play and play, dinner 7pm? i get home 8pm, upset that she didn't squeeze in her practices......... something's gotta change.