Wednesday, February 28, 2018

HHH


 Fishball & Veggies for Recess

 It's Pay Day!
Why am I cringing?
 I wanna break free from feeling 3rd world.

 Meanwhile, bracing for a new month.

Step 1: Eat something nice.


Step 2: Read an original letter from Colin (replying to his childcare teacher's letter)
He asked if the Garden and Student Care are still there.... (ha, this boy is gentle-heart)


Meanwhile, Kiki researches for help


I was watching Jim Kwik's videos when this phrase got me.

How you do Anything is how you do Everything.

Oh ya, and H H H. H cube as he calls it.

For a sustainable change, the new habit has to sync from your Head, to your Heart, to your Hands.

Tuesday, February 27, 2018

Still Feb


CNY spread over 15 days is for everyone to try to catch up with their friends from here and there to do a Lohei if you want. So last evening was one of the Lohei nights.
Despite having bigger portions than me, my colleagues still could eat toast and have coffee. We shared a Hokkaido Cheese Toast and I thought it tasted quite nice, although rather chewy. 
I would want to eat this again, thought quite pricey for toast... something like $3.60 a slice. 


 Don't burden your kids with your drama.......


 Jessica Parker is the lead actor (when I say actor, it's a generic term), in the story, she is going through divorce proceedings, she had an affair and her hubby became too angry with her and couldn't find it in him to forgive her. 

She has to bear the brunt of her own folly, now all alone, she pursued her dream of having her own Art Gallery. As she was eager to please some big-shot gallery owner, she was rather naive and didn't she really wasn't quite cut-out for the underlying game plan. Like the big-shot person checking her out and she hesitated about putting herself into the game. 

 Anyway, that aside. 

Earlier, she had spotted a closet painter (this black lady) and relentlessly pursued the artist to "come out", to paint more original pieces, to just let her expression flow. JP had a hard time pursuing this lady because that lady lacked confidence, she didn't want people to know she paints. She chased JP away many times, gave her hard times, scolded her for being nosy etc. After many months of chasing JP away, this artist lady finally gave in and began to paint. Over a few months she managed to generate a dozen pieces and JP held an art sale for her (of course with commission, that's what art galleries do). So anyway, they were elated with the overnight success and were very happy as they celebrated. 

However, the next day, JP learnt that the artist is ditching her after her maiden art sale. She will be represented by that Big-shot gallery owner (that creepy chap) as it was a chance of a lifetime. 
Predictably, JP was disappointed. I mean, she had worked so hard to coax this artist out of her shell and now just after one overnight success, her "star" artist will jump ship?  She didn't have any formal contract on because that artist had ALWAYS expressed self-doubt and uncertainty in her painting career (if any). So now, that artist is offended that JP is purportedly giving her the guilt trap. They each call the other to Get Real. JP finally said that had the artist been real about coming clean, why did she have to wait till the END OF THE MEAL to break the fucking news?

Anyway, having watch countless sitcoms and drama series, I've realised that that generally, people can't really hate people who are real to themselves. As in, like they've owned up to their own screw-ups and they honestly don't repeat the same screw-ups-- people usually cut some slacks for them. Of course unless if the offence is too close to morality than the defense mechanisms will activate. 


Monday, February 26, 2018

Feb weekend


$50 home delivered Fish. Two plates, small quantity but I think they're great for making Fish Soup for porridge.

back to our secret stairwell, warming up before class. 


 went TokyuHands to get my CC cream, always end up with more stuff =) 

 so cute, right?


 Electric Toothbrush, Colin asks for one after seeing that Kiki has one. 
They love their new toothbrushes. 

 Sunday, this week is revision period because Tests coming. 

 confirmed left handed, no changes, no doubt. 



Very confusing conversation.
We were revising the word "旅行" travel / tour, when I asked where does he feel like going for travel / tour, He replied that he wants to go to Cozmo. Spelled it letter by letter, C-O-Z-M-O. Huh? Where's Cozmo? Then he began to describe to me this Robot that travels to many countries and he wished he has this Cozmo. Oh.... wow. It's an AI toy, not cheap arh.




Whatever, What, What, Huat Arh!

Friday's office Lohei Dinner

Whatever, What, What, Huat Arh!  Lohei. 





Friday, February 23, 2018

<< Please Stand By>>



 << Please Stand By>>

New movie starring Dakota Fanning. 
As I watched the movie, I realised why Colin's childcare Principal kept giving me big hints about what might discover. They went as far as telling me that they will write me supporting letters should we ever need it for KKH psychiatric review. As much as his tantrums have lessened, the intensity sometimes, did not. Supposedly kids outgrow tantrums as they grow more mature and become more able to control themselves as well as be more able to socialise or negotiate, some of the times when Colin fights with Kiki, his tantrums are highly intense and he couldn't stop. I would hate Kiki for that. She would not give him an ounce of understanding, she keeps biting on facts or fairness. It drives me crazy. I am not asking her to give in to Colin all the time, I am asking her to know when is play and when not to push it further. That boy gets into a frenzy screaming crying spell like pants on fire when his territory is being compromised. and by territory, it could be referring to space or items (toys). The outbursts are sudden, they are like a fire alarm that went off in his head. Not all the time but even if it was once in a while, it is not normal for a six year old. His childcare does not want to give it a label, they gave him the support and hope he finds it in himself to outgrow it. Now that I think it is clearer, I will also be more watchful over him. Hope he gets more expressive with other avenues, writing, colouring, playground time, he likes to walk in his school's garden (he told me that), sometimes I know that he struggled to find the words to express what he was trying to convey, I will be patient and I hope his sister will become more patient too. 



my Gifs story. 

Are you O.K?

You know, my aunts they asked me not to probe about some troubles that my cousin got into. They don't want my inquisitiveness to trigger any blown out temper from my uncle. But my uncle and I text frequently. He sends me quotes about God, almost every day. If I pretend that I've heard nothing, 
doesn't it mean I care nothing?

This stupid culture about "not being nosy" is stupid. We pretend that there's no problem and everything's fine. When clearly it isn't. Is there a taboo about being not fine? Do we always have to be trouble-free?   

Do you know a meaningful, caring-- Are you okay? will mean a lot if you really care to listen?

So, against my aunts' warnings I asked my uncle if my cousin is okay and he replied that he's okay for now and that they're giving him the support at this time. 

Thursday, February 22, 2018

初七人日捞鱼生





slow serving dishes, time to make some Gifs Stories.
so, there's this template that comes with blank spaces. you'd fill them out with what works for you.

Painstakingly

Monday's Test.... got to learn all these words.
No context, will not make sense to her when learning Characters without stories or context.
I got to read to her more often, but I don't have the time nor energy.
She asks for help, and my heart cry.




Found our old App.... it is pure gold, except that it is still rather painful to learn because got to search word by word, stroke by stroke but now I've discovered to search with Hanyu Pingying which is easier for me.... after 45 mins of learning new words, we learnt to write and memorize three short phrases. Thankful for great progress! 

To reinforce new learning, got to repeat these phrases tonight and then 3 days afterwards and lastly 3 weeks afterwards. But I don't have that kind of energy..... cos got to go and learn the above sets of words for Monday's test! I have no time because Friday's company dinner, Saturday is violin, Sunday is swimming but still got to squeeze in any time that we could find, bearing in mind to save some energy for learning.


Kiki's IG story is asking me not to be angry........
Ya, I howled them last evening. They were fighting and no one was willing to give in.

Dear girl, who wants to be angry?
Will you just give in to your brother?
When I ask you to pacify him, you told me to get him a pacifier.
You have a sense of humour but it wasn't funny when he was screaming.


This morning. One roach was in the bathroom.

Me to Bren:  Baby, can you help me with something?
Bren: What...
Me: (took a glance at the roach) Oh never mind, it ran into my room.
Bren: (sprang into action, took care of it)

Wednesday, February 21, 2018

Decide, accept, adapt.



 I felt bad that Colin had knocked his front tooth that day at the playground. It got injured and it took 3 months to decay and finally fall off. I felt bad because it was an accident (as in he tripped and fell). I would have preferred it to outgrow naturally but, well. I told myself that his tooth will be fine, just like my tooth got knocked out when I was in K2 when a boy pushed me and I fell but my adult teeth are all fine, except for my own neglect. For now, we have a bogey boy with a wide grin, haha.



So, I was happy when she surprised me with her Math Quiz results.
As I was adding Gifs to it, she lamented that since I didn't allow her to "be a YouTuber" will I let her have an Instagram account so she could play with Gifs stickers as well.
I think I was in a happy mood and I agreed without a fuss although I told her that she must set it to "private" and she must not take pictures of herself nor personal stuff.
I didn't think it through because I felt bad about not approving a pet, a hamster, YouTube, and some stuff etc. and I didn't think too much about Instagram or how she might be even more glued to her phone.

So, for now, I'll have to accept that I had agreed to it, and continue to monitor her.


 I think she meant "I don't do gossips" but she doesn't know the word "Gossip" yet.
She was explaining that her classmates' leaving is not rumours because they, themselves, went telling everyone that they are leaving. (as in the news is from the horses' mouths, hence it is not rumours). But since she doesn't know the word- Gossip, she didn't quite know how to put it across but I get it.
She's not interested to find out where they'll be going. She joked that maybe Victoria will be going to Victoria Primary School. She made that up lah, I don't think there's a Victoria Primary School but there is a Victoria School which is a Boy's School (Secondary).



So fast, she made several Gif clips. All her favourite characters. 



She even read my "Story" and didn't like what I shared about her.
She doesn't like me sharing anything about her.

Tiger this, Tiger that.