Freudian

Freudian theory is that the unconscious mind governs behavior to a greater degree than what people tend to believe. 

Been watching "Shut Eye", from season 2 now back-tracking to season 1

 I'm so gonna eat this every day.

 Trying to catalogue the menu for recess so that I can just take my pick next time.
Need more fruits & greens.

Getting your acts together is the first step to break from self-denial.
Going cold turkey on what's burning you most is the first step to break from unwanted outcomes.
Not everything's hard but even if they are, to preserve your self-dignity, just get your acts together and get it done. If you're too weak to get things done, you do not have a place to whine, you can always embrace a lessen standard of yourself or find some other ideology of you that you can be peaceful with, there is no shame to that.
Harsh words becomes soft when it gets through.